Captain Jelly Belly is really into Buzz Lightyear right now (and superheroes in general). So a couple of weeks ago, I let him watch a downloaded copy of Buzz Lightyear Of Star Command, a straight-to-video 2-D animated movie featuring just Buzz on a secret mission to defeat Zurg. In the movie, Buzz’s Space Ranger partner, Warp Darkmatter, is killed in an explosion. It later turns out that Warp is not actually dead, but instead, is alive and working for Zurg as Agent Z, so there isn’t any graphic death scene or dead body or anything like that. But Buzz thinks the death is real, and so there is a sad part where Buzz feels a tragic loss.

This is probably the first thing CJB has ever seen that has a death in it. It doesn’t seem to be upsetting him too much, but he has been talking about death again a lot lately. In particular, he is obsessed with giving me constant evidence that he is not, in fact, dead. He’ll say stuff like, “Mommy, see how I’m talking right now? That means I’m not dead.” Or he’ll say, “I’m running around, which means I am not dead.” Or even, “My heart is still beating, so that means I am not dead.”

At first I thought it was kind of amusing/charming, but now it’s kind of creeping me out. Today in the van he asked me, “Will I be alive all day today?” and I said, “Of course!” But then I got to thinking…what if he knows something I don’t? Is it too late to panic? Because I think I could whip up a really, really good panic over this one. I mean, I have an awful lot to fret and worry about in general, but I could clear my usual slate to devote myself 100% to panicking over CJB’s apparently impending doom.

Okay, now I’m really freaking myself out! Time for a new post subject!